Occasionally Rich will ask me, "what are your dreams"? Along with being rich and famous (J/K), I always have to tell him that I AM living my dream. When I was a little girl, it was my dream to be a mom and wife. Now that I am one, I can truly say it is a dream come true. Now don't get me wrong, our life is not perfect. I don't mean this to be boastful or to let on that our life is perfect, it's not. I only mean to say that I wouldn't have it any other way.
Just like most of you, my life is filled with tears and fighting, scraped knees and huge goose eggs, mental health challenges and constant messes. The laundry is never done, and the fingerprints on our glass never seem to get cleaned off. But to me right now, this is wonderful! It is part of our journey as a family and it is what makes me happy.
I love catching our little family in moments where we're all laughing and smiling. I love it when we dance together or play games or wrestle. I love it when I have moments of clarity and realize how truly blessed I am.
I've noticed that this feeling almost always lies in my attitude and perspective. A couple months ago, I found myself irritable, ornery, and difficult. Lately I've been waking up everyday with a smile on my face with excitement for the day. The difference: my attitude. Nothing in our lives has really changed in the last two months, except my perspective. I decided to focus on my blessings and the positive in my children and husband. When I did this, I became happier. I can chalk my feelings up to hormones, the change of the weather, or sleep deprivation, but for me it ultimately comes down to a conscious effort to focus on the positive in my life.
I don't mean to trivialize the feelings of depression that some people feel. I know that these are real and that "thinking happy thoughts" doesn't work for everyone. For me however, this truly does seem to work.
Anyway, enough of my ramblings today. I just felt like saying, I love being a mother and wife. It brings me so much joy.
